Thursday, November 5, 2009
That's how I feel right now. Eh. Like a darkened room with only a sliver of light. Gloomy inside, cheerful outside, and the cheer only reaches shallowly into the room.
Maybe that's my problem. I'm being shallowly cheerful. It's like how sometimes people expect you to smile, and you don't feel like smiling, but in the end you do anyway. I did anyway today, and I'm not proud of that.
Today wasn't a bad teaching day per say. But I wasn't satisfied with it. It could have been better. I could have been stronger. More serious, especially about handing out consequences. The card system works only if I put weight behind it. And I don't.
I will tomorrow. I hope it's not too late.